one thing today

  I'm scared of my dishwasher. I've never had one before. Some people are afraid of fire. I've always been afraid of floods. I had an Oscar party and a friend ran it for me for the first time without any trouble. I tried to use it last night, followed the instructions - even the bit about running the hot water in the sink before I began - which I don't think we did when we ran it that first time. I added the detergent and started it up and this morning I opened up the washer and lo and behold - the plates and bowls look crustier than they did when I placed them in the machine. The detergent pod was on the floor of the dishwasher. Dish placement problems, something else? Time will tell. At least it didn't cause The Big Chelsea Flood of '25 I have inside my head.  lucky

  … an hour ago it was 79. The riverfront was full of riverfront folks - runners and picnicers and playgrounders and teens all cavorting and contorting along the piers and jam packed pathways overlooking the silvery Hudson. March is a wild card and swirling curls of shifts exist. Lets twist again like we did last summer, lets twist again like we did last year.

  I go through new obsessions on Youtube all the time. Yes, there's always babies and dogs. But I've gone through cracking eggs on  loved ones foreheads, blind dating in a London restaurant, portrait contests, a modern day Fathers Knows Best Not.  Currently, I'm oddly intrigued by a straight male porn star who cooks with his fellow players. He's cute and funny and naturally gifted at performing with an accent on dicing and pan frying and sexy grins. He and his guests seem new age fit and healthy, no drug addled mumblers like back in the day. They're clear eyed and humorous and so comfortable with their chosen profession it's a thing to strangely applaud. It's a site to see. just writin'.

The essence of bravery is being without self-deception.  Seeing ourselves clearly is initially uncomfortable and embarassing.  We see things we’d prefer to deny - judgementalness, pettiness, arrogance. These are not sins but temporary and workable habits.  The more we get to know them, the more they lose their power.  This is how we come to trust that our basic nature is simple and free of struggle between good and bad.                                                                                               - Pema Chodron

... about death is you won't miss your favorite people, places & things anymore. 

  Dana Carvey was on fire on tv last night. He did a zillion pin sharp impersonations and told how Bush senior called him and asked him to come to DC cause people needed cheering up. DC responded - where will I stay. He and his wife spent two nights in the Lincoln bedroom. The most common question he was asked was … did you and your wife do it. His answer … well, I don’t sleep over and tell but my sons middle name is Abe.