one thing today

  I am spending far too much time watching barkleythabulldog on Youtube we have an ICE agent watching our building somebody told me that the best thing is when somebody loves you for no reason - thats when you stay with them ... when you know they'll deal with the heat with you there's romance in almost everything thoughts aren't facts

  its one of those horrible computer fuck up days ... hours trying to figure out the printer, mac, adapters, wi-fi ... second call to apple ... chose four for no music ...  I chose four and get shitty opera ...  doesn't instill confidence in the process ...  I try to sign up for writing class tonight ... they don't recognize my email , I re sign up and they tell me my e mail is already used by someone - yeah me - they want to know my religion, emergency contact, income, bowel movements, fuck, they want it all and I want to escape but can't - so I try to remain polite to thick hard accents and the jagged process. I hate it and am not sure why I am sharing this with you. maybe just to kill time. not sure. but always always when it rains it pours, right.  nothing gets easier as we live better.

Louis Armstrong.  In the Fifties, in New Orleans, Negroes were only allowed to enter parks one day a week. 

  Greetings mrs just- thanks for the foto - one of my fav things … seeing a pic I never knew existed of me and friends in younger days when …   Hope you are well as we spin off into our dire demise - but what can you do? It’s frightening/exciting to bear witness to this twisted, prolonged real life sci fi Netflix saga.   Hope you and yours are well, keeping up, coping and finding some fun now and then. Life here is quiet and status quo kinda … am loving my new place with ever changing sky and birds and clouds, water towers and light abundant out all my windows … makes a big difference, this big surprise turn of event in my home good fortune.   Am returning to my playwrights group on Monday after a summer rest. Writing about the last time I was with my father - and knew it would be the last time - he was stopping his dialysis after fifteen years. Unsurprisingly, it was anti climatic, wanting, haunting, worth dissecting. I want to get it right.   copious reading a...

wow. all these uber rich actors/celebs/stars hawking gambling apps.  on tv. shame on you, you stupid no good pigs.  diane keaton once said she loves "to see." now that's wonderful.  she once feared flying and warren sat with her from LA to NYC and flew right back by himself. no wonder.  the hostages were released. love seeing pure bright joy of reuniting.  the day is as gray and the silence is full and the thinking soft and slow.  

  I saw the most beautiful clouds I’ve ever eyeballed the other morning. Pink early Disney circus country fair candy cotton carnival cereal prize toy Oz hue - brings back childhood visions designed to entice. Made me miss that world we once had and have no more. Big, boastful, tasty, kissed.