one thing today

an all tech all the way bad day. at first. hate them but did get my phone and mac and tv fixed. but had to go thru that tunnel of trouble ... that boulder that sits tight until is doesn't in most endeavors. you doubt yourself, you go way too far, it gets way more complicted than it needs to be. that fuckin house icon vs the rectangle with the arrow piercing it on the remote.  Samsung - get thee to different..  oh and btw ... if you're a billionare and you get married at Madison Square Garden  - you are officialy baned for life from the Cool Artist Club.  God Almighty Fuckin' gggggeeeeeezzzz. never underwhelms.

  It started with a grocery list H sent me cause he couldn't decipher it. and then back in the city - having a hard time figuring out what I note to myself. penmanship/cursive - I gotta change. 

  M entioned this in passing the other day. everyone looks very tasty on Village streets in this just hatched july. the streets look more movie well lit for some reason. most everyone is fit. they wait in line, blocks and blocks of them, for Greek yogurt. blocks long. 77% of everyone is 28. the boys are not tall, they care about their hair and clothes and show off what their trainer plots for them. babies are more cute than usual. people look better when they're trying to impress. no dirty nails, no frayed collars. girls hang out in 3s and 7s or 17s. they don't seem to care about the boys. and the gay boys with their clothes so tight out in the neon night know they may get lucky so they try to look happy if they're not. talked with two out of towners about how expensive everyone is  and we compared walking to school in the snow stories. I made a dozen somethings in June - paintings, photos, collages, writing - it's like I am chaneling him since he don't be doing tha...

 

This collage just fell into place. Magic.  we meet at Bryant Park he wears a la coste shirt with a tiny pink pig undeneath an orange umbrella  he needs to shop at Whole Foods he talks to a woman encircled by trays, cases, rows and shelves of cheese do you have wisconson cheddar ? cheese? excuse me" cheese? cheese. yes. cheese. she goes off in search of  cheese. she comes up empty. maybe she didn't even look for it and did something else.  it was over there in the corner. the other day. when you served me. I don't remember. you did.  a maybe manager man joins the party.  cheese buyer shows the brand he wants on his phone. we don't carry Boarshead.  you do. we don't. do.  he gets on the phone with the person he is shopping for.  I tell him I'll be outside where people are eating cheese sandwiches across the street in the park.  in the park, he asks me what I do.  I say ... pretty much loaf. what is this loaf? lo...

                                                              el tipico bueno di a aqui  rising and  seeing what kinda day the day will be. Early Gary setting up his two chairs and small wooden table. the birds sing along to Barbers Adagio for Strings.  the old determined woman stomps in the sand & takes in the shifting beauty. the tall nude balls and chains with their broad shoulders and bad tats and beautiful wind up brood of energizer bunny shorties.  Fab Barbie John  is like a great 60s TV next door neighbor. My new story  My Abuela and the Bully, wine, late day light, grilled dinner, ice cream, laughter, talk, book, bed.