one thing today

Bringing Back the Dead … 1999 … never even heard of it. Nobody does off center city curly swirl friesndies like Scorcese … nick cage w/those eyes, ving r, Rosanna A, gone Sizemore … fab no name characters actors who deserve names … horses and whores and smelly men. Overnight central one minute out. Don’t make em like this that now. Shish kebab shenanigans and  Senagalian ragheads. That’s gotta hurt. Better bring it all. Do. Does. Things have changed. O looka that.

  The poet Hart Crane created his private lexicon of ecstatic apprehension, a witchy alchemy of sound and signifier both seductive and frustrating. a language somehow teasingly just short of yielding itself up, supremely intelligent but shy of complete intelligibility, a kind of crystalline transparency.                                                                                                                              - Ron Rosenblum

  I’m trying to find a play of mine in my Mac … from 2014 … rent a beatnik, maybe my fav thing I’ve written and lo and behold the doc won’t open up … a “temporary error” message that seems very permanent.  I am currently on hold with Apple support … hoping they can help me with the matter. It’s my fault … being careless and lazy about protecting/securing my work … but it raises questions about loss.  There seems to be so much of it lately …. in machines, on mountain sides and streets, in peoples minds about things leaving and uncertainty and cruel, self serving only leaders. It’s a thing at this time worth exploring. I imagine if I had no home, no family, no memory … what or who would I be. And so much time passing and less to come and … what we need versus what we want or have. Writin’ in circles here which maybe is part of the thing. What is the thing?

  4 Things that you cannot recover  THE STONE........After it is thrown  THE WORD.........After it is said  THE OCCASION.....After it is missed  THE TIME.........After it is gone 

my oldest sis scored another birthday  talk about cut from the same cloth / 2 peas in 1 pod  she was my heaven then 

         ....  Hugo, Marcos, Larry, Paco, Jacob, Tony ...                                   like she wrote ...                                  when nothing                                           seems right                                           they b da best

... is possible to become addicted to power — particularly for certain character structures. Individuals with pronounced narcissistic, paranoid or psychopathic tendencies are especially vulnerable. For them, power does not merely enable action; it regulates inner states that would otherwise feel unmanageable. Donald Trump is an extreme illustration of this dynamic. From a psychoanalytic perspective, his narcissism is malignant in the sense that it is organized around a profound inner emptiness. Malignant narcissism is a combination of narcissism and psychopathology. Because there is little internal capacity for self-soothing or self-valuation, he requires continuous external affirmation to feel real and intact. Power supplies that affirmation. Visibility, dominance and constant stimulation temporarily fill the void.                                          ...

...  our human fate, and the reality of war and disease, it is crucial that we keep the idea of pleasure in circulation. We are desiring animals who arouse one another through speech and touch. Our pleasures support our activity and imagination. Play sustains our lightness and curiosity; it is itself a therapy. And so we must, until the end, insist on our appetites and delights.                                                                   Hanif Kureishi - Dispatches From My Hospital Bed  

I have been obsessed with Beverly di Angelo of late - she of horse riding in Central Park Hair fame,   Patsy Cline in Coal Miners Daughter  and and and ... mother of twins at 49 with Serpico and sexy super sexy voice. She bought the Dan Akroyd haunted house who bought it from Ringo Starr who bought it from Mama Cass. It was built for Natalie Wood. In her prime, Bev left show biz for a decade and married a young blond Italian comely count … who told her Pacino was a fantastic actor … so go be with him. Her kids are another example of beautiful people having surprisingly less than the same looking dazzling offspring … like Bruce and Demi. I feel a little mean writing this but just sayin'  and nobody cares and life’s relatively short and ultimately tragic so … so what.  

Ti me was not something then we thought of as an item that possessed an ending, but something that would go on forever, all rested and stopped in that moment.                                                                                                -Sebastian Barry

  From my good friend Paul ...  by Heather Cox Just after midnight on January 1, in a private ceremony in the long-closed former City Hall subway station in Manhattan, New York Attorney General Letitia James swore Zohran Mamdani into office as mayor of New York on a historic Quran. Hours later, Senator Bernie Sanders (I-VT) swore Mamdani in publicly in a ceremony on the steps of City Hall. “My fellow New Yorkers—today begins a new era,” Mamdani said. The new mayor emphasized that he represents the everyday people of New York City, “construction workers in steel-toed boots and halal cart vendors whose knees ache from working all day” and “neighbors who carry a plate of food to the elderly couple down the hall, those in a rush who still lift strangers’ strollers up subway stairs.” “I stand alongside over one million New Yorkers who voted for this day nearly two months ago,” Mamdani said, ”and I stand just as resolutely alongside those who did not…. I promise you this: if you are...

  Network Notorious Sunday Bloody Sunday Holiday Godfather Tootsie Klute Hair Last Tango in Paris Mockingbird Taxi Driver Member of the Wedding Women in Love Rosemarys Baby A Special Day Looking for Mr. Goodbar My Beautiful Launderette Sweet smell of success Jean de Florette Dog Day Afternoon The Heart is a Lonely Hunter Giant East of Eden Manon of the Spring Breathless Day for Night Lion in Winter Petulia The Conformist Don’t Look Now Nashville Deer Hunter Shoot the Moon Night of the Hunter Sunset Blvd Once upon a time in America Hannah and her sisters Topkapi My Left Foot Far From the Madding Crowd Shampoo My next door neighbor texted me and said we should catch up. We have never caught up. It was a nice gesture. He came over with chocolates. We talked about the building, our neighbors, our nyc histories and both of us noted how fast time has  passed.  I sent him the above list of great films upon his request.  What are your fav movies?

  welcome Mr. Mayor  Foremost city to embrace lives, languages and dreams  songs at the inauguration  -  everyday people, here comes the sun, over the rainbow, Talking Heads, Times r a changin' …  And a poem titled Proof   …  New York, city of invention, Roiling town, refresher And re-newer, New York, city of the real, Where the canyons Whisper in a hundred Tongues, New York, Where your lucky self Waits for your Arrival, Where there is always soil For your root. This is our time.