Looking out my window yesterday and who do I spot sauntering down the street minding his own business - Saint Nick himself, Santa. He looked exhausted after the holiday - not carrying anything, taking his fine old time reaching the corner. And then, when he’s out of my window frame, believe it or not, here comes Ms Claus, dressed just as shabbily as her formerly crazy busy ball and chain. They were mirror images of each other, except for his flowing, triangle shaped white beard, maybe triple the size of a pizza slice. And to top things off, this morning on my way to the deli, when I see the not so little woman, she tears me a new one with fouler language than a Hells Angel methed up with food poisoning. Tourettes.
As my sister Suzie says ...
... LIFE. It grew into a very sad day this day … began with my computer failing me and calls and calls to Apple and Spectrum and texts and e mails and incorrect passwords and low batteries, recorded voices and stupid stress inducing muzak and erasing everything on my machine and reinstalling and promises bout retrieval and on and on and I lose everything at first except fotos… documents folder is empty ... including my plays and seventeen years of journal ... twelve hundred pages and it feels at first like my memory was erased and then I thought about this year and people losing their lives, and homes and livelihoods and minds, loved ones and so many things more ... and it grabbed hold of me and made me contemplate tonglen. Compassion and empathy. Turn things round. Utilize adversity. Yes, that's the way too proceed but still blue and feeling stupid for not having been more taking care and I go to genius bar at Apple and say to a long haired smart guy with good teeth ... I'...
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