I am very sad at the moment. I can’t find dozens of letters my family sent to my sister who was living in Europe in the 60s. They were so sweet and telling … so many perspectives of shared life - from Jessie, 10, to my grandmother Justina and everyone in between. Ugh is all I can think. How did I lose them in the move? What to do when you lose something treasured - except feel the loss and use the opportunity to widen your compassion for others who have lost much more.
Bye
My old apartment is completely empty ex for an almost empty bottle of Windex. It’s been less than a week since I left it and now it’s unlocked. I like to go down and visit. There’s something strange and special about an empty apartment. Besides the echo - it evokes a number of things for me. The past, the future, quietude, melancholy, loss, Last Tango in Paris - where Brando and the young French sexpot both check out a beautiful empty apartment and I think Brando rents it and they meet there and have wild sex and he makes her promise to never say or tell him her name and vice versa and it's such a wild fantasy, two nameless people flooring it again and again for good or bad underneath a night skyway in the City of Lights.
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