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 Saturday 7/16 







I go to visit Amanda and Nancy in my hometown.  We go to the beach and walk and talk about what we talk about and then go back to Nancys. We’ve known each other since we were ten. The house was originally built in around 1870 - no typo there.  We swim and hot tub and eat tasty chicken, grilled vegetables, banana bread and wine - and end the night in her comfy living room talking about our mutual fear of nursing homes and the end. I tell them about the former hemlock society - which I tell them is now exit.com - which I find out is wrong - its called "compassion and choices."  We talk about various ways of ending it and then find ourselves in deep, sudden silence. And then we laugh. 

Comments

Elizabeth said…
You guys are nuts! Lol you all have a lot left to live laugh and love! XOXO
July 17, 2022 at 6:20 PM
Anonymous said…
Let’s have a repeat of a wonderful day but maybe minus the last conversation. Or not !!
July 18, 2022 at 7:33 AM
Paul Graham said…
easy for you to say, you thirtysomethinger. but thx for the sentiment.
July 18, 2022 at 7:36 AM
Paul Graham said…
the truth shall set us free
July 18, 2022 at 7:37 AM
Gary said…
I get emails from exitinternational.net. I want to choose when to exit if need be.
July 20, 2022 at 1:33 PM
Anonymous said…
Love this ! We'll celebrate ur birthday real soon ❤️👍
July 29, 2022 at 8:47 AM
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